I started to feel encouraged. It’s a wonderful feeling.
Right after my last post, I spoke to my friend/roommate of what I’m going through. She said, “Maybe the reason you feel empty is because God wants you to search for Him.” Wow. I never really thought of it like that. Maybe the reason any of us feel empty/lonely/discouraged is because God wants us to try to find fulfillment, knowing He is the only one that can ever truly fulfill us. Yet, too often do we look in the wrong places.
I read this today and it really encouraged me:
Even though we don’t “feel” it, God is working behind the scenes. When we don’t see it, He’s doing something BIG. I don’t know how God can start something and not finish it. He’s a God that hears, answers, sees, and sometimes works in mysterious ways (who am I kidding, he ALWAYS works in mysterious ways). Whatever you’re going through, just remember that God has not forgotten. He is fighting for you, pursuing you, loving you even though you can’t see or feel it. His grace does not depend on how much we understand it.
On a different note, after praying for years about it, I’m finally going to Passion! It’s a huge conference in Atlanta, Georgia with some of the greatest speakers and worship leaders around. I’m incredibly excited. I gave up on the idea, but God recently re-opened the door for me to go. Even though we forget about our desires, God doesn’t. His mercy is just too much.
